I'm seeing two different reactions without seeing sources of perception.
One end, I'm still getting judged and badgered with Lohan. The other, is actually positive feedback where I am referred to as a Saint.
I'm ignoring Lohan. Sick of hearing about it.
I remember most of what I said last night. I don't know how people connect the dots to how they see me as a Saint and what it is that I say where they see me as being so angelic. Maybe my endurance of encouraging less judgement, and harassment? And if there is judgement, to support competent judgement. Maybe even after initial judgement where it is I want to go from there? I don't know. I know I'll go my way no matter what, but sometimes it is interesting to see some reactions out of people.
I have another Australian "marriage," that is being brought up. My very first guess would be Dane T. from ORU. (Gavin Rossdale). I did have a crush on him. It was the summer before I ran to the police. It was like this fiery passion with him, then with Chance, then I kind of got lost in it all. I felt maybe I was too overwhelmed, they were to upset to continue the relationship, and I got tossed into the game playing field where everyone got puppeted around. This was a time when I stared at the wall most of the time during the preachers message. I just didn't want to see what they were saying. It was the type of stockholm, where even though it was sexy at times, made me burn on the inside because I was not able to do or say anything. It was love and subjectification mixed together and it really pissed me off sometimes.
I don't remember their story. Sometimes I get paranoid with Dane Cook. I just don't know how to take the system.
So. Where do I see the relationship with Dane T? Especially because he looks like Moscow, and I have heard negative rumors that have not actually happened in real action, I don't know if I would be safe with him.
I don't remember many details of us or who he is. But in my instincts and intuition he would be both a person of lust and a lover, but not sure about having a trusted friendship. I think he may have problems with wanting to stay with me, and maybe resentful that he would want someone else, yet does not know how to deal. I could be wrong, but even though there is passion there, I also sense a little bit of danger. I'd be afraid of lies or unspoken truths that he could be hiding behind.
As far as being official, there is an interest, but I don't see us officially being together.
